What is Faith?
Tuesday, October 16th, 2012
The phone calls this weekend were something we were anxiously awaiting and avoiding at the same time. 4 months of negotiating (and making progress, mind you) left us high and dry as someone else swooped in at the very last second, fell for the seller/seller’s realtor’s scare tactics and put an end to our vision of what would be our next “home.” With a snap it was gone.
“It will be ok,” “You will find another perfect place,” “That just means something even more amazing is around the corner.” yes. I know (and I do truly appreciate). But lets not fool each other.. it doesn’t make it any easier to swallow.
Scouring the internet on Saturday night I came up with no replacement (at least not in our price range). Like a young girl just fresh out of a break up, I was searching for my rebound of a farm home to replace this false security—the feeling that “we knew” where we were ending up. I sat in bed with crocodile tears. I sat in church with crocodile tears (trying not to ruin my mascara). There were lots of tears…and thankfully through them, healing and an “ah-ha” moment.
A voice. Poignant. Truthful and out of the blue: “Is it really faith if you can SEE what is on the other side?”
Silence. More tears and more words: “YOU. DO. NOT. BELIEVE.” (more…)